一个沮丧的夜。。。

我的长子布鲁斯没有睡好觉。。。白天整天吵。。。

我需要远离他一下下。。

当我工作时， 我是一个更好的妈妈。。。

当我工作时，我是一个更好的人。。 。

从日本搬回到马来西亚， 我不断告诉自己，我需要给孩子的日程惯例。

就是不行， 我未能得到日程惯例，总是有事。。。 为什么。。。

我也认为是否有一个佣人，所有这些就不会发生。。。但是我怀疑。。。

 我认为我需要比佣人更强大的力量。

当我在日本时，我曾经也这样认为我丈夫。

如果约翰是更多这或更多那样，则生活有是更好的。。。

真相是，我。。。

我不是妈妈材料，亦不妻子材料。。。

叹气**

 

妈妈需要是像八爪鱼… 有 8只手来帮她的工作….

A frustrated night with crying sick kid...

My oldest son Bruce did not sleep well for the last two nights...very whinning all day...man~~I need to get away from him.

I am a better mom when I was working, I am a better person when I was working...

Since moving  back to Malaysia from Japan. I keep telling myself I need to have a routine for my children. It just does not work. I have not been able to get them a routine, there is always something going on....

why is that... I am also thinking if I have a maid, all these wont happen....but I strongly doubted. I think I need someone more powerful than just a maid to help me out with this one.

I used to think that about my husband when I was in japan. If John was more this or more that, then life would have be better...

The truth is that, it was just me....

I am just not a mom material, nor a wife material...

sigh**

mom need to be like an Octupus...wth 8 hands to help with her work....